time

Occasionally I notice the ticking of my watch on my bookshelf. The watch is constant, but my notice of it is rare. I’m not sure why I can tune it out sometimes, but others, the sound is so explicit, I’m not sure how I ever don’t hear it. 

The watch has a ouija board on it. I find them fascinating. I was told my watch is sacrilegious. 

I’m not sure why ghosts have to be anti-religion. Religions are so intrigued by the after life, why is it so wrong to believe that energies stick around?

I actually do believe in ghosts. I mean, why not? Why close your mind off from something that could be true? Who cares if it’s not. Maybe it is. 

There is this fascination about constantly being right about things, when I think we can explore the idea of “what if?” What if ghosts are real? What if all religions are right? What if all religions are wrong? What if the afterlife is actually life? And this is just the beginning? 

People get so closed off from ideas that scare them that they don’t stop to consider the possibilities.

But possibilities are endless! Possibilities are exciting. If all I could ever receive in life is that which I could imagine, I would live a contained life. It could be great, it could have some really amazing things in it, but it would be limited. Limited by what I could foresee. I think the great power of life is that we don’t know what’s going to happen next, and it could be within our expectation or it could be totally from a left field. We don’t know. We just have to live, and experience, and see what life has to hold. 

I think the ticking is a reminder that sometimes we notice life passing by, but often, we don’t.

Often we are just living with eyes, blind, hoping things will work out for the best. When, in reality, we have so much more agency than that. We have the ability to take charge and to hope and to push and to hustle and to make what we want happen. We have that power. But sometimes we forget to take it. To decide it’s ours for the taking. 

Tick- tick – tick. 

What are you going to do with today? 

Where are you going? 

What are you fighting for? 

Tick- tick- tick. 

Anything? 

Tick- tick – 

Anything at all? 

tock.